Mild Flooding, Water Wings Are Located Beneath Your Seats.
// January 8th, 2010 // 1 Comment » // Uncategorized
I had three very cool internet moments over the last few days.
The first was discovering I had been ‘itemized!’ on The Best Blog In The World Seeing my name and blog being mentioned on Havi’s blog was awesome, and thrilling! Very Cool Internet Moment #1.
Awesome and Thrill were quickly joined by Panic once it sunk in that my quiet blog with it’s tiny readership was going to be flooded with visitors.
Ack! A flood! I’m not a good internet swimmer, and I can’t remember where I put the water-wings.
I’ve been strolling along blog-wise, posting once a week, mostly, and putting off setting up my newsletter. Mostly because setting up my newsletter involves being all ‘technical’.
I hate ‘technical’. It’s scary to me. Anyway, when I knew that people would be arriving the fear of setting up my list was overridden by my desire to just get it done.
So I started going through the set up process. And it was EASY! I couldn’t believe I’d been putting this off for so long.
That voice in my head had been lying all this time, and a months-long block dissolved almost instantly.
It was almost up and running when I hit a snag. Damn! The only way out of the snag was to ask for help. I’m fine about asking for help. At least, the concept of asking for help. Except A: I’m shy (another reason not setting up my newsletter became such an attractive idea) and B: I’m pretty quick to pull the “I’m stupid” trigger with anything technical.
But again, I knew people would be coming. So I emailed Men With Pens , the people who had put this site together. And they were great, and got the newsletter thing sorted in a flash. Yay! second block thwarted. I have a functioning newsletter subscription thingo. Very Cool Internet Moment #2.
Then I came across this by Sarah Bray in the comments thread to her latest latest post at S.Joy Studios:
“I think you just have to make the decision not to be awesome sometimes. Just be there.”
I’ve heard the phrase “Just show up” and it’s always helped me to scramble and get more things done when I’m feeling overwhelmed or intimidated or self-conscious. But even when “just showing up’ I’m still putting pressure on myself to show up in a way that puts up a good front to others. To get across the impression that I have everything under control. I’ve always put that pressure on myself whether it’s doing a piece of art, writing, performing, facilitating a workshop.
I had the ‘just be there part down O.K.., I was just missing the bit about sometimes making the decision ‘not to be awesome’
Something in me was ripening and I just happened to catch that phrase at the right time. It really dropped in for me. *Click* Very Cool Internet Moment #3.
So, I got here and another blog post made it out. Awesome? Maybe not. But hey–My first newsletter comes out next week. It’s called ‘Cup of Chai’ and there’s even a link on the right that you can use to subscribe!
